SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s!!

“One of the luckiest things that can happen to you in life is, I think, to have a happy childhood.”

-Agatha Christie

Yes, exactly most of us believe and repeat these lines at least once a week. The reasons may be uncountable and each small thing stored in ROM that makes you feel to reach the past and live those moments again. Our journey from off womb to day so far (where we are rushing for those 2K notes) has always been crazy and even then we never complained about accepting these changes. Being from initial years of last decade of 20^th Century and thereafter adjusting our teen life in 21^st may never be perfect. I have tried in ths article to have a ride back along with my 90’s mates in minutes and smile wherever it feels to .

Have you seen a venturimeter? It’s a conical tube where a pipe diameter suddenly enlarges and WE are the one who are stuck exactly in between. One side we have our parents with really some good views but not ready to accept so called modernisation while the other almost open source code. The era where everything you find in minutes ! Yes even love. We have seen ghoongat wala marriages and so we have some live-in relationship matters too. Things have changed from telegrams to tring tring phones to ‘very much smart phones’.

We have witnessed those bell bottom jeans to skinny ones and Rajasaheb to Jockeys. In adjusting from our Jockey (haha) and our life we have struggled so much.

The struggle doesn’t ends here even. After this we have our generation who won’t ask us to understand but it will be us again to adjust according to their deeds and requirements and so we will SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s.   

Grammar nazis!! You have to understand, that for us,English was just an academic subject . You have to bear us and our ‘I did not told’ SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s.

Finding a perfect childhood DP for our whatsapp profile on Children’s Day is a hard task for us. We don’t have those 720p HD pictures of ours and that too in candid. Our rude, mustache wale uncle were very much concern of his 36 clicks of roll. Yes, we may have blur photos of ours, but memories are still much sacred SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s.

In 21^st, where we find so many recreational places with extra professional happenings that make you the one who you never were. To dance on floors with etiquette and grace is definitely not our type. My uncle has taught me some basics and so if my Shadi Wala Dance leaks out, please don’t stare me as if I don’t belong to this planet. Just give us 10 minutes to calm down as we don’t just mark our steps right but feel each wave of music SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s.

Sorry if you find us eating with the hands and keeping fork-spoon aside at hotels. Yes, it is berserk to handle that dosa and postmortem it to see if whether aloo is well cooked or not. I don’t feel the taste changes till hands are well sanitized. So please let us eat with zero guilty as we have it for appetite and not for in routine SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s.

Oh shit! Those balloon advertisements! I mean those preventive equipment! Argh! Those Condom ads! Sorry, but only we know how embarrassing it feels to be with your parents and enact like you didn’t know its on TV. Running for remote, running for glass of water, running for cellphone and in short running off the situation. Never that easy! We rarely had those sex education campaign but if we are not comfortable about talking it at some places, it is that we understand the appropriate situations for major things SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s.

We are definitely aware about most brands of Daaru, but you will find us saying it daaru only. For us alcohol is that which makes you a person with no ethics and no job and no future. So if you find us saying ‘pee ke ghar nahi jaa sakta’ is that to keep my parents’ view the same for mine. Yes, we have ethics, a good job and may be a future too. So, don’t make our mock as we really care for them SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s.

You know what!! I am really scared of making this read to my father. I am clueless of how he will take some of the things. I am really close to him but then I remember getting him like Triple-H sometimes SINCE WE ARE FROM THE 90’s.

So many things more!! May be this post will ask you to keep few minutes out and cherish your childhood fun again and to think on how the things have changed so far. Moreover you were the one who were so flexible about everything and you may have to be throughout your life.

Be child wherever and whenever you get time!

I wish all of you a very HAPPY CHILDREN’S DAY . Stay alive!!

Thanks Ruchika for reviewing it and for your kind appreciation.

Regards and love, 

-Tushar Cancare

(cancarestory.blogspot.com)

The last good bye !!

"So?" She said while trying to open the umbrella .

"So what.." I replied . I took from her the pink umbrella having  orchid prints all over it . This was just to let her know, that babes I still do care for you .
I took out a pen to push the clip in.

"Here it is..."

"Thanks " she smiled . I never understand the species the almighty has made .You feel like you understand them completely but they are always ready to prove you wrong .

"So... Nidhi ." I uttered while putting on my coat cap. It was raining too heavily on the day . Streets almost covered with H20 in which Nidhi wanted me to be the solute. Yes ,this is practical science.

"Reevan ! Are you going to say more than 'so' today ? " She asked me giving a jump into the H20. Splash!

"Why we are here?" I asked following her.

"I don't know." She said . How can even she say this . She did call me to be with her . It took an hour for me to reach . I paid extra just to be there with her . Yes ,I need a reason that would make my efforts worth .

"Really ." I replied compressing everything I wished to say.

"I mean ..like... its good... I don't know" she said while covering her more properly. 

"You want me to tell you a joke ?" I said trying to direct the converse .

"Haha ,No ! Please . Better you kill me " She laughed . I think it was the moment after an hour of meet where we really talked how it was used to be an year ago .

Two years back in winters I and Nidhi met in my college for cluster championship of robotics . Nidhi was struggling with some of the components of Dragger ,her robot ,when I helped her . It was the time we came in contact and became friends. After couple of months ,things went further and like every story we managed to be in relationship.

Now ,things ain't the same . From last summer we don't talk often . We do ask about life happenings but we don't tell about the same .

It was an hour meeting her but what we could do was laugh on the world's most rotten joke . Things have changed ,but are really we?

"I am leaving." She said taking a half turn on the heels to face me .

"No ! Lets go for a coffee" I said interrupting her and jumped on the roadside paves. Though it was too softly to make sure that it feels like its okay even if she wants to leave .

"Reeevaaan ..Listen ! I am leaving for Canada next week" She said while asking for my hands to help her to be on the paves.

" But why? And when you will be back Nidhi" I interrogated while pulling her up . No ,I didn't want her to be kilometers away . Yes ,we don't even talk much but I don't want her to go like this . I dont want her to leave everything in between  ,atleast before giving it an end .

"My uncle wants me to be there and work in his firm . I do also want to be away from this place . " she said looking at me .

"You want to be away from this place or it is me?"

"Really as if it matters."

"Can't you be clear everytime ?"

"Reevan... why you act like you don't understand anything " She said while rising her amplitude this time.

" Because it is always opposite what you mean and what I understand " I exclaimed.

"You don't want to understand Reevan!" She said and raised her umbrella to cover me in too. She held my hands in and rest her head on my shoulders.

"Atleast you tell me Nidhi . If I don't understand ,please make me ." I said taking the umbrella from her.

"A day you will understand . Somethings are not meant to be teach . You need to learn " she said while poking into her cellphone . She messaged someone and kept it back.

"I want to say something" I looked at her . I felt like I was about to lose everything . I was striving for her . I was feeling I was late for what I was trying . I didnot want to miss the chance . I just wanted to stay here itself . The reason was just not known.

"I know ! But please don't mention it " she said . " Be like what you were these last 365 days. Be very formal with your words . Wish me good luck like you used to before my exams . Just ask me take care of self . Tell me that you will miss me many a times . But don't say what I want to hear . " She continued with tears rolling down .

" I am sorry Nidhi " I apologised holding her hands more tightly this time.

"You don't need to be. You will be missed" she said while shredding her hands out.

" I want you to be here with me but " I said ,to be proper I ordered .

"Why ? "

"I don't know" I replied in a second . I ruined it once again .

"I need to go . My sister is there to pick me up" she said while pointing to a maroon sedan car .

"Yeah ! Let's go" I said heading  .

"Bye!" She said and went into the car .

"Is it the last good bye?" I asked in the most low audible tone I could.

" I don't know . You could have tried more better . I was here just to give me a reason to stay . Reevan a hug at the right moment could have been enough to stop me . I don't know whether you love me or is it that you don't know how to love. " she said and pulled the door .

"Lets go didi ." She asked her sister .

"Good bye Reevan" she waved and the car went off.

I took my phone out to call her and keep my heart out .But she didnot receive. I called it again and this time it was switched off.

I was standing at the same place . I couldn't even feel the rain . Things got pause for minute.

I lost everything I had. I lost her. She never said what she wanted me to be . I was clueless everytime .

Yes ,may be I don't know how to love.

Was this really the last good bye??

-Tushar Cancare

Mom!! Tell me how to...

Those nine months when you held me so close ,
Excited right the day to have me you chose .
Those late night unheard stories and unreached tales ,
The smiles when I used to hit straight into cells.
Tell me how to heal those pain ?
Tell me how to reform those strain?

The fall of mine and the cry for hours ,
The hurt was never so much but that LAP of yours.
The safest place have ever found,
A small bee me and those arms around .
Tell me how to gift you such big castle?
Tell me how to gift you so calm and place off hastle?

The first day at the bust stop crying- holding you so tight ,
Yeah! Leaving for you the first time right?
You waving till the end you could see my van ,
Like, yes a lot lonely by then .
Tell me how to show you that am the same strong bone?
Tell me how to live if I feel alone?

I was wrong a hundred times,
Make it one way or in the rhymes !
You stood by my side when well inside I died,
You covered me into your arms like am abide .
Tell me how to prove that I am as you , perfect and  right?
Tell me how !when you know all insight.

I am a better person and the way you like,
Exactly not the way you moulded but yes alot alike ,
Not to be too harsh and not to be cragy,
To be everyone's and heart too soft and saggy .
To forgive and to smile for each reason ,
To be joyful and spread happiness in way of fission.

Mom!! Mom!! Mom!!
But tell me one thing  ....

Tell me how to be so strong as you ?
Tell me how to love like you?
Tell me how to care like you?
Tell me to swallow pain for others like you?
TELL ME HOW TO BE LIKE YOU??

"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO YOU"....

-Tushar Cancare

JUVENILE -BEYOND THE ACT 2015

Should I laugh ? Laugh on the present scenario or cry for the future I am framing .I am not sure if the kids these days are really experiencing the childhood or it is just if they are net-practicing the under-adult ship .It is good to be in such binary digit filled world where kids know everything . Kids are obliged with the technology they are surrounded with .But isn't it virtual ? Billions of virtual world that just belong to them .It's so curtained from everywhere. The 5 inch screen has evicted my acres of ground , my miles of cycle tracks and those family sofas from where my father used to deliver all those feelings a juvenile needs.

Being a  decimal practical my calculations are bothering me these days. 15 years back , I was considered to be an under grown till age of eighteen and so now it is sixteen . Really the medic-supplements are working so strong? Well it's a good going rate . My fellows , after few years the condition would be a kid off the womb will suspected be a rapist .Yes , no offense at all, as the calculations witness it.

The kids are curious, they want to try every bit of resources .Of course, it is good to be curious. But then what if a day your child comes with a gun and starts shooting everywhere just because he is curious . I hope , your mind is following right back my words . Let the kid know first what the things are. Direct them to the best ,know him/her what their life is about .Don't kill their curiosity , kill their doubts or else the binary digitized world is there to solve them in any condition .

Live the best moments and think for the worst happenings .Project it , work on it and make those under adults aware about how the God made us to be .He gave us organs to produce humanity ,to produce talented minds. I really don't want any of my neonates baby to be in the bins striving for life . The baby didn't ask you to bring her in the world where the childhood doesn't exist anymore.

The post is to keep alive the innocence , to let the minds be juvenile too.I know world is too busy in earning but let earnings be worth . " The case is too sedate and much beyond the ACT ." My juvenile , I am thankful to you for being so perfect .



In concern,

TUSHAR CANCARE